I wished I could have been a better lecturer.
I would have liked to teach you about happiness
instead of how to scan with Photoshop.
I would have liked to teach you about self-reliance
instead of designing a logo in Illustrator.
I would have liked to teach you about appreciating
the beauty of the skies and wonders of the earth
instead of making you work for the marks and credits
which mean nothing in the end.
I would have liked to teach you kindness
to share with your friends and neighbors
instead of showing you how to use In-Design to lay out a page.
I would have liked to remind you of your strength
and help build your confidence
instead of reminding you of the late fees that will get you in trouble.
I would have liked to share some time talking about the world and you
instead of conditioning you to belief that success solves everything.
I would have liked to be a little more understanding and be more compassionate
when you didn't hand up your assignments
instead of black marking you and comparing notes with the other lecturers.
I would have liked to tell you it's okay
to have chosen a course that doesn't suit you,
to be at the bottom of the class,
to feel like you don't belong
because ultimately you can change your path and future
instead of scaring you with rules and regulations.
I would have liked to listen to your dreams
and know what your passions are
instead of ranting all the time about other things that don't matter.
I would have liked to open you to a world of possibilities
where nothing is impossible when there is love
instead of locking the door,
confining you to your space and leave you to fend for yourself.
But I believe nothing is too late.
Not in any sense.
Although back then I was conditioned,
just like you
I am now awaken
and I know you will be too someday.
And for all those times
you have been a teacher to me
as much as I have to you.