Wednesday, February 27, 2013

If You Live

If you live
how they want you to
you will be angry at everything
that don't go your way.
You will hate yourself
when you see the reflection
on the mirror
but you don't know why.
You will go ahead and do things
that you don't enjoy
and make a mess of your life.
You think you are happy
because you are successful
in their eyes
but you know
deep inside you're not
when you cry alone.
You might even go so far
as to repeat the mistakes
they have made
and justify them
with your ignorance.
But there will be days and nights
when you awaken to the sound
of sincerity and truth
and they won't go away
no matter how much you try
to shake them off.
You will choose all the paths
that go against your believe.
You will connect with people
who share similar problems.
If you don't go down to their level
you may find yourself in the darkness
that feeds on your aspirations.
Your dreams die slowly.
You don't want to go on trying.
You give up.
You know it can only get worse
when you see all those around you
wallow in their own pools of disgust.
You thought listening to others
was how life should be.
Just when you are about to call it in
you see some strange loners
creating their own paths.
Those who have been branded
and targeted for damnation
just because they don't follow
what the others tell them to.
You agree with the others
but you feel that little spark in you
that wants to taste it for yourself.
To do what you've always known
to be your secret destiny.
You wonder for a moment
how it could be
if only
you had the courage
to take the first step
away from everyone else.
Now, you are at a crossroad
deciding if you want to be
who you've always been
or who
they've always wanted you to be.

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Queen of TMI

The first time I saw the abbreviation I was dumbfounded. What the hell was TMI? It was written all over my manuscript in red and I knew it was not good. So, I googled it and found that TMI stood for 'too much information'.  I didn't bother to think any more about it other than I knew my manuscript was in good hands.

It was later when other editors, directors and actors told me about the TMI syndrome that I seemed to be infected with made me realize I must really be the Queen of TMI. I know I shouldn't do it. I know how I disliked it in books, articles, movies and plays and yet I still do it. 

What in the name of TMI am I doing?

I recently wrote a play with TMI sticking out like an offensive finger and got shot down like an enemy plane. Though the comments were laden with heavy artillery they shook me out of the EGO tower and slapped me a few times before I woke up from my concussion of errors.

What the hell! After reading the play a few more times and listening to another reading I would have shot myself in the face if the play had been staged.

By nature I am a very quiet person, that's what I'd like to believe, but when it comes to writing I flood my tales with excessive descriptions and unnecessary dialogues, kind of like B-grading them to some extent. I keep forgetting to show and tell all instead and water down all the mystery and magic.

If you've ever been in this situation, remember TMI is not a good sign and being a queen about it ain't gonna get you crowned.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Monday, February 18, 2013

Medusa for the Year of the Snake 2013

I was finishing off the last few snakes when the sun crept in through the window. I thought it made the Gorgon look more terrifying.

And this is the finished Medusa, or maybe still need a little touch up.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Monday, February 11, 2013

Cthulhu Jack

The answer of pain
is bound to the closest vein
that which forgives none

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Year of the Snake 2013

I'm not a fan of festivities 
but I like snakes. 
This is an unfinished piece 
of a Gorgon for the
year of the snake.

Dreaming of Cherry Blossoms 2013

The blossoming of
colors spring into your heart
and bring you sweetness

Did you say you wanted a pet?

First of all find out how long is their average lifespan?
Think about how you will be able to accommodate them in your life.
Whether you can bring this pet along with you wherever you go or even if you leave the country.
You know this pet will be closely attached to you once you keep it.
If you feed it, shelter it, play with it and love it some kind of bond develops.
Leaving them behind after months or years of care is not an option.
If you still decide to get one, go adopt one.
The moment you buy one you encourage someone else to smuggle them, breed them or trade them for profit.
These pets will be carted from one country to another, one town to another, one enclosed cage to another until they find a home with a buyer. If not, they sometimes waste away and die a miserable death in their own feces in the same cage they were brought in.
Still, you want one.
Great, go ahead and adopt one or pick one from the street.
It's all fun and games to have pets to keep you company and make you laugh at their silly antics but remember, they grow old too.
Some pets reach 20 human years and some less.
They may fall sick. Loose their teeth. Succumb to diseases. Get bedridden and are unable to carry on basic functions.
Will you still want to clean up their vomit and poop everyday?
Will you still want to embrace them even if they begin to smell really bad?
Will you set money aside for their expanses at the vet?
Will you come home and be with them as part of your daily routine?
Even if you go broke, get a divorce, get entangled with upsetting emotional and psychological politics you will still have to care for your pets as though they are your children.
In fact, they are your children. Just not human ones.
You may think you're doing the animals a favor when you rescue them.
But is your decision based on compassion or a noble thought that you are doing something great?
After weighing all these responsibilities and you still feel that you can go ahead and love them anyway, then go spread your love.
Ultimately, it's not about you, it's about them.

Thursday, February 7, 2013


If you can...
don't buy them,
don't keep them,
don't take them,
don't trade them,
don't harm them,
don't abuse them,
don't make them,
don't break them,
don't waste them,
don't leave them,
don't throw them,
don't tie them,
don't deny them,
don't scare them,
don't hurt them,
don't rob therm,
set them free
and let yourself go.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

You're nothing but an Onomatopoeic

waking up stupid
waking up with a duh
and an ehh

bring it on dummy
bring it like an uhh
and a meh

ain't gonna get any better
ain't gonna get any supper
with all the bah

the heart won't stop
the heart won't listen
even if you blah

run along you moron
run along in slow motion
and trip on a boo hoo

lost in a locked room
lost in a grid system
and all you know is goo goo

if time doesn't exist
if time is in a bottle
that you drank and burp

there goes the neighborhood
there goes the tumbling down
to your careless slurp

down the rabbit hole
down the hobbit home
excuse yourself and go uh huh

up in the air it shoots
up in the empty room
echoing to the sound of emm hmm

now you sleep an idiot
now you sleep away in silence
yes you, dingbat, psst, psst

what's the point nincompoop
what's the area code lamebrain
yes you, the imbecile, tsk tsk

Cherry Blossoms for the Year of the Snake 2013

stage 2 of acrylic on canvas

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Blue visions

The blue is always
in your eyes that wander to
never ending truth

Saturday, February 2, 2013